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I read this in a book today....."if there is no trust there is no relationship" I agree, but sometimes it makes me think..how is trust built...you start by saying I trust and then actually internalize it, or take time for building the trust that can never waver....someone once said..either we trust or we dont..is that possible?...to take such an extreme position? ....I thought I trusted someone 99% and someone at 20% level... I may not distrust too..but can there be anything in between?....strange....but then, is trust built? or does it just happen?....like few say love happens....for me love is not an instant feeling...it grows..so should trust be like that?...grow overtime?.....donno....too many conflicting thoughts, too less a time to analyze....so why think n waste time:).....

My friend Antara and I made this rangoli...I have been making rangoli from childhood, a telugu tradition..but for my friend, a bengali, this was the first time:). She was pretty excited.. The night before sankranti, we googled for a nice design that was interesting as well as easy to make....finally we got this large size one and I improvised it when we made this. ..we used yellow, orange, maroon, pink, and green to make these...and it took us around 4 hours to complete this...It felt pretty nice to be doing it...and Antara loved it too...:)...

its true!!!!!.....everytime I see him, no matter how he is, he makes me feel special. I feel beaufitul. When he is not around, I feel gloomy. When he is lively, therez a strange happiness in me too.. I havent been able to figure out why this happens to me, whenever I see him. Thats why, no matter how busy or tired or frustrated I am, I need to see him...exchange some silent moments...for me to feel peaceful again. He makes me feel as if the entire world is with me. I have shared all my stories with him...there has been no part of my life that is unknown to him. He has been my confidant. No thing or no one can ever replace his place in my life... They say, that in the cycle of life, whatever comes, goes again. I dont want him to go!!! He is a beautiful part of my life... I wish he is around..forever.....for me!!...as I never seem to get enough of him... Wondering who he is???...He is my handsome hero (as I keep calling him)..., my MOON:) in the sky!!:))

It's been a while I wrote something here...now that I have loads of time on my hand, I thought I will get back at this again.....you may ask how come I have so much time when I need to go to office...I have been down with enteric fever (typhoid) from the past 3 weeks and havent been going to office as I neither have the patience to drive nor work long hours again in office. A day before I fell sick, I was telling my colleague that I needed a break as it had become really stressful in the past few months and somehow from the next day I havent been able to go to office. It's a strange coincidence I thought.I did get a break, but then, this was not the way I wanted it to be, firstly, my mom and sis are so worried about my health and recovery...secondly, I feel so weak that I can hardly do anything...all I do is lie on the bed, watch tv for a while, eat, sleep, drink and do nothing else...but..in a way I like this disease....you know why??. Coz, its forcing me to rest, to take car...

'There is a need for out-of-the-box thinking'. In work context, we hear this quite often...but in our personal life, do we follow this?.......

Yesterday when I was going back home after an exhausting day in office, I noticed a biker dragging his bike on the road as there was no fuel in the bike. While passing by him, I thought to myself, the petrol bunk is so far, and nobody has stopped by to help him out. Then suddenly I thought, why cant I do the same?..Manytimes I have heard people say, that people always say things need to change, but no one actually does anything...this thought troubled me. I knew I would keep thinking I should have gone back and helped the biker, after going back home. So this time, I actually did something..!!!......I took a U turn, went up to the biker , and made sure that the biker got the petrol in his bike!!!!.....:)....... I then told myself - I'm really proud of you my girl!!!:)........

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Whenever I meet anyone new, atleast 7 out of 10 would ask me, 'What does Praphulla mean actually?!!"......Its a different name, not found very often in South India ( I have no statistical information to prove this!.)....... Basically, my mom, when she was young, used to write lots of poems, and sing really well..( she does even now actually!!!)..... So, she named my elder sister as Pallavi ( related to Music) - beginning of the song....and my name as Praphulla (related to literature) - Blooming... However... I researched about my name on the Internet...and here is what I have found: Praphulla — enlivened, fully blossoming, pleasant, cheerful Praphullita — being jubilant True to my personality...Isnt it??...:) PS: This thought just struck me!!...You know...my sister sings really well...now when I think about it....I wonder....my mom had 2 passions.....one was music...another literature.... mom used to sing well, and my sis name is related to music, is that why my sister sings s...

Recently I had this argument with one of my colleague, who said that I tended to sound materialistic.!!..I was shocked...coz..anyone who knew me well enough would definitely deny that I was materialistic.....then I asked my colleague of what my colleague's definition of a 'materialistic' person was. My colleague then said that, I once mentioned that I dream to own a porsche one day...visit venice......etc.....I was excited when I bought a new phone...when I got my new laptop....n I get super excited about small things such as a good dish...a good movie etc etc.......all these, as per my colleague, made me materialistic...!!!..... Thank god!!..I thought!!....coz, then I knew that I just loved material things and was not 'materialistic' as the term is used widely.... Being materialistic in my opinion, is when one gives more value to the material/immaterial things than human relationships... show me one person who doesnt love material or immaterial 'things'.......

What does 14th Feb mean to you?..Is it any other day? or is it special?.....For me..it always has been special....not because I had a valentine I could share it with....but for quite the opposite reason that i didnt have a valentine...hehehe!!....But every year...from my engg....I've been receiving a mail from an anonymous person wishing me today... a secret admirer?..maybe..more!!...:)... I always wondered why we needed only 'one' day in an year to express our love for someone.....someone once told me that if you profess your love on a regular basis..the value of the feeling will be lost..and so they wait for a special occasion or a specific time to express their love.....Its strange isnt it?? When you love someone, we do not need to wait for a day or an occasion...every day...every moment will be special when your loved one is with you...you do not need to give a material gift to show how much you love them...just a small gesture that you think about your loved one ...eve...

What is your definition/ interpretation when you say ' I know this person'? People say that , it is not necessary to spend a lot of time with the person to actually know the person...But then, whenever there is a misunderstanding or a disgareement, a common school of thought is that you havent known that person enough and so there are misunderstandings...Another school says that even though you live your life with a person, you still will not know how the actual person is ....and the widely heard ..'I need to know the person before I say 'yes'....thought!!.... Amidst, all of these...I ponder..will anyone ever be able to say ' Ok..you can know about 'x' person in 'y' amount of time'....? Can we set such 'just-enough' timeframe to know a person? But then?!!.....What do we mean when we say ' I know this person'. I am sure you would ask me, what my definition of 'knowing a person' is...:)......Hang on...I will hopefull...

I was reading one of my friend's blog today and suddenly like a lightning, it struck me, that the face of this friend I was imagining while reading the posts was slowly fading, and finally went blank and a completely new face of the person popped up in my mind. Who is this person?!! I wondered. We were in the same engineering class for 4 years. We might have discussed on hazaar things during those 4 years..I thought that I generally hadan idea about this person. If anyone asked me about the person, I knew I had an opinion!!.... But, only today, have I felt, that my interaction was very 'one-sided'..I only saw the 'generally accepted- public' side of the person.. and never actually 'knew' the person. It was mainly, I believe, because I did not have a close interaction with the person. This feeling of 'Who is this new face? ' happened even when I was reading the blog of one of my closest pals. It made me wonder...Have they changed to such an extent tha...

Someone once told me " Its all in your mind!!...if you think it is ..then it is....if you think it is not...it is not!!" ....Very true....isnt it?.... I was mentioning to someone yesterday that human mind is a mess sometimes...Have you ever wondered how many thoughts you thought in a single minute?,,,I did...and I started counting...n counting n countng.....until I lost track!!..heheheh!!....at one time I was thinking about my work..the next sec I was thinking about the colour of the walls in my home...n then the yummy food in my refrigerator...n then about the calories I was putting on...n so on....!!!....its a never ending saga of associations!!!.....and that too ..strange ones!!!.... It is said, that by meditation, one can control their thoughts...... Whenever we attend the meditation classes, we are told that we need to keep our mind focused on one thing for ex. think about your favourite fruit...and focus only on it and not let it waver.!!!!!! But how often are we able t...

The other day I was reading a newspaper. ..in the front page, there was an article about Ricky Ponting and Anil Kumble's meeting for an amicable settlement.....In this article, I saw this Airtel Ad!.....The way the ad was placed in the middle of this article was quite impressive... Donno why these numerous Ekta Kapoor serials dont seem to understand!!...in almost every serial , there are problems and issues in heroine's life just becoz she hesitates to TALK!....and her silence runs into many..many episodes...I think they believe in Speech is Silver and Silence is Golden!!! ( True for them!!....they are making so much money with their 'silence' episodes!!!)

A moment of silence....and a quick flashback!!.....that is what happens whenever I hear the sound of an ambulance!!... Today...while wading my way through the traffic jungle to reach office...with my fav. songs being played in my deck!...I was chalking out the plan of action for the day, and for the next few months with lot of enthusiasm and excitement to accomplish many things!!.....then suddenly...from the other side of the road...I heard the sound of an ambulance!!!!!!!! everything went blank in my mind....there was a long moment of silence!!!....all that happened 2 months ago...and 8 years ago...flashed through my mind!!.....8 years ago....we first realized the need for an ambulance....and 2 months ago...I actually experienced the feeling of an ambulance!!!... Trust me....neither of them turned out to be pleasant!!!... With a hope that the patient is cured , their family is happy, and, I regain the enthusiasm I lost a while ago...I start my long day ...with this post on my blog!!!....

Yesterday I was watching a programme in a news channel.....it was basically a discussion about what the next steps for BCCI and Indian team should be!!....For the first time after a long time, a programme related to Cricket enthused me....its not because of love of the game...but it was becoz of the love of the fluency and aggressiveness with which the news anchor was conducting the entire show!!.... I was really impressed !!...News anchoring...or as a matter of fact....anchoring any talk show...according to me....is an art not everybody can master!!...you need to be fluent...upright...aggressive...analytical...logical...while being sensitive to the fact that what you say can lead to misinterpretations with serious consequences....as you are being watched by almost the entire nation!!.....Tough Job!!...

From childhood, I always knew I was special....I grew up strongly believing in it!!!..Did I have any reasons then??..nope!!...I JUST KNEW I had the SPARK!!!... One day somebody asked me, so "What makes you special?" .....I said I was good at heart, sensible, responsible...etc etc etc......then the person said....ok you are...many others are too....then how are you different from them?.....for a moment, I thought, the person was foolish to ask such a question...what else could one possibly have.!!.....then I started thinking....what the person said was true....there are so many people out there, who are good...what makes me special?...... I thought...and thought...and thought.....then one day I realized.....that the only thing that makes anyone special....is the way we look at the world!!!!......and that is what I think, makes us different from another person.... we go to a movie with friends...but how I connect with the movie is different from how anyone of my friends does......

I was browsing through some stuff, when I came across this - Halo effect and Horn effect!!... Halo effect basically says, that when your visual message is positive, the other person tends to assume that other aspects about you are equally positive. Likewise, when your visual message is negative, then the other person will tend to assume that other aspects about you are equally negative. This is called the "Horns Effect." Therefore, it is especially important that you make a good impression by dressing professionally, exhibiting positive body language, and displaying a warm and sincere smile.

Read this somewhere!!...- " Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you.... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her .'”"